I remember my past

I live in the present

I don’t know what my future holds, but I want you to be in it, forever

The raging storms you go through

The battles you fight day in and day out

The thoughts you have

The challenges you face

The feelings you hide

The voice you take

As you grow and move closer to who you are

No matter who you become

I will always love the person you are

Now and forever

We chase the shadows of our future

Looking back and forth, past to present

We chase the dream, it drives us,

It moves us, we fight for it

It fuels our ingenuity, our creativity

We look for it, to grasp and never let go

Each day it becomes stronger, our Will ensues after

Each attempt, we push forward

Seconds feel like days, hours like months, days like

Years, we keep moving, looking for it

The hope to fulfill the dream

The dream of wholehearted Love.

We expect the worst when we are at our lowest

And we expect the highest when we are at our best.

We teach what we know yet sometimes we don’t

learn from what we are taught.

We hate too much of something yet yearn for

something we have very little of or don’t have at all.

When we want a relationship to work we fight for it yet

one-sided we let go and still want through the pain.

Dear child,

In life you will run into speed bumps, walls, forks in the road. Sometimes you will feel like giving up. You will feel like all hope is lost. Even like you can’t move on or go on. You’ll feel like shit, depressed and motiveless. You blame yourself for it all and you will hate yourself. You will be mad at yourself. Just know that these things are a natural course of life. You will be alright, you will move on. You will be able to be happy and escape stress and depression. You will overcome great odds. You will succeed. You will find the passion that will drive the rest of your life. You will find your destiny. You will be happy. This is only temporary and lasts as long as you want it to. Keep your head up.

Love,

Dad

Everything you say hurts

I felt it all, as it fell apart in my hands

I knew we were build on a broken bridge

I had faith we would be

Broken we are not

Apart and destroyed by a few words

The only things that’s left is a shattered soul

Recovery doesn’t seem likely

You didn’t even feel anything

Only to use me I fell for you

I fell hard and glimpsed at the hope

There was nothing there but my empty hand

I’m falling further because I fell so far for you

The stars couldn’t even stop me

This is the end as the agongy rushes through me

I feel everything, I want to be numb

You broke my heart so many times and I stayed

You tortured me to the brink of death and I stayed

I did everything to keep you and I lost you

I fear this wound will never heal

A part of my life I wish I could forget

You never cared

You never loved me

Just a mask to use me like everyone else

I have no more kind words for you

I’m just a speck of dusk in your way

I’m just the ember that escaped the fire

To eventually be extinished

For each day that passes

My thoughts of you remain

My feelings never changed

The touch of your skin escapes me

My mind drifts, carried across nations

My heart yearns for you

My soul cries out to you

Each day that passes

I wish you where here

I know your heart

I know your body

I know your soul

I want to know your mind

We shape what we can control

The things we cannot, shape us

I see you when no one else does

I saw you in the crowded spaces

I’ve seen when you’re vulnerable

I’ve seen when you’re strong

I’ve seen when you cry

I’ve seen when you laugh

When you’re happy and sad

I’ve seen when you’re hyper and calm

I’ve seen you when your sick and in good health

I see you when you doubt yourself

I see you when you stand on what is right

I’ve seen when you’re humble

I’ve seen when you’re understanding

When you care

When you are afraid

When you are bold

For all this I love everything about you

For this I say, I love you more than you know

-EDC