**These are very old, I do not feel any of these emotions anymore**

Remembering the forgotten
We breath and exhale, but we live and die
We take all our effort, but shed it on desire
We build a life, but we don’t live enough
We take a road, but never stay on track
We move to become, but we never stop
We watch the time go by, but never in the moment
We converse, but among miles
We are loyal, but we are liars
We seek knowledge, but have no faith
We look to the stars, but never reach them
We see the light, but we remain in the dark
To only become our fate, but never accepting
We are alive, but never together
We are a memory, but never a dream

Folly of a man and a single tear
So far out, in the middle of the ocean, a calm silence
bolsters to the rich sounds to the ocean spray
The sun crashes through the clouds, deepening colors
to the depths, the winds begin to cry to the vastness
of the oceans plain
Waters begin to swell as the clouds scamper together,
challenging the deep blue to become dark and grey
With each moment passing the fury and
violence is building
The waves begin to talk, they begin to ravish, taunting
each other to become bigger
Clouds blacken as the tyranny of energy split the sky
with lighting and thunder, each louder than the last
The winds begin to circle each other like sharks
before a kill, the water begging to touch the sky, the
clouds moving in force
The storm rages growing massively, miles and miles
the violence continues unchecked, untamed
Every second the wind charges faster and faster, the
sun blocked by the monstrosity
The event that could destroy everything, divide the
soil you stand on, all the turbulence for a kingdom to
fall, the chaos to crumble
Every second the storm gathers, growing, becoming
increasingly insurmountable, but behold, its center
The unchecked, the violence for miles, a brief moment,
a glimpse, to the center
With all the fury engulfing, the eye, the center of
the storm, a man, a shade, shrouded by the envious
calamities of the storms power
Taken by the storm, he stands, motionless,
aware and alive
With every feat he sheds a single tear, unmovable
he cries but can’t be heard for the storm consumes
every breath he takes

Truth in the fire of my eyes
I can feel the rage that wants to come out
It won’t because I won’t let it
I don’t need to be mad, I know who I am
I accept who I am
I love the person I have become
I didn’t ask your opinion of me
I didn’t ask for you to approve of me either
I don’t want your thoughts of why I’m not accepted
by your friends
I don’t need you to tell me how to live my life
How to wear my own shoes
I don’t need your guilt for trusting judgment
from others over me
I stand on my own, without you
You didn’t have to listen to your friends, convincing we
weren’t enough, I wasn’t enough
It doesn’t matter to me, I know my weight
I know my value
I gave you everything, as you took everything from me
You are just a memory
Tormenting my life
I’ll dull this memory till the fire in my eyes goes out

The angel of blood
The stars scatter the sky in abundance
The air is crisp, cold and dry
The moon shines down onto a white field of snow
Each snowflake packed tightly together to create a
blanket of cleanliness
The trees whistle in the wind, swaying shadows
onto the white blanket
The night glows with subtle light from the
moon and the stars
The center of The field is set for a stage
The performance is tragedy
Looking through the eyes of a broken soul,
This soul stands weakened
Abandoned and lost
The soul takes a sliver blade that shines in the
moonlight and swings the relief through the air
Piercing the skin on each arm, drawn down the arm
The warm blood begins to pour and create wings
As the soul falls to the ground he is comfortable,
at peace
From the stars, the soul lays on the white canvas
The soul an angel of blood.

Break these chains

We beckon the winds to calm our heart
We cry out to extinguish the pain
We focus our mind to forget the unforgettable
We feel the sun across our face
Yet the chill is forever lasting
To be free is to die
Never unchained, the hope we seek
Pluming the fear to be forgotten
Forever lost we cry to the moon
Guide the light to the our path
Remain in the darkness never to be found
Forever to feel alone
Plunged into darkness we are alone
Never to see the light again
Turn from me, for I am unseen
The ghost of no one
Forever to be lost and alone

Circles of glass
When tides break still waters
When the moon wakes the darkness
When harmony shatters to oblivion
When all that matters, fades from your grasp
When your soul cries out in pain
When your heart tires to die
When hope fled from my eyes
When there’s nothing that could be said
Torn apart I drift back into darkness out of sight
Torn from this beauty, no might remains
The Will to live seems to dissipate, sorrow ensues
With a pill may you drift away back to sea
Become lost at sea once more, never to see
the shore again
Once more to take on the circle, made of
shattered glass

Choice
To plunge back into darkness
Welcome back my friend, it’s been awhile
For the darkness was the comfort I needed
The lonely alibi to my soul existence
To feel the pain again, sink deep
This is where you belong
Forever alone
Take solace in your emptiness, for you cannot feel the
wounds in the darkness
Stay in the shadows and become invisible once more
Become a servant to the ground, stray your gaze
away from the light
Let your heart shatter, each piece will never define you
Rebuild the cage around your soul
Put the barriers back up, make them so strong you
can’t tear them down
Feel the darkness overcome your light
You were not given a chance
Your worth isn’t deserving
Not matter how you try, you are empty
Alone and forever in sorrow
You may see light but don’t deceive yourself
Happiness is not meant for you
Take the swords and put them through the wounds,
fall in a pit of salt
Embrace the pain, enter the shadows once more
Return wanderer, hopelessly lost at sea once more
Let water fill your lungs, the feeling of drowning has
returned once again
Breath in the water, feel the gasp of life
The air isn’t there, just you are
Abandoned and lost in the sea of the cosmos
Drift, you can’t stop, always moving away
into deep space
Let the wounds reopen
Feel the blood of your pain spill out
The darkness has no pity, no shame
Just emptiness, loneliness and sorrow
You can try to hope, but that’s just like the air
you can’t breath
Your an outcast and always will be
You can try all you want but you won’t be able to
stop drifting through space or drowning in the seas
alone and forgotten
Feel the dark embrace of the shadows
The pain torments your soul
Become immobile
Don’t look back for second chances, there are none
You make the choice and there was no chance,
embrace the darkness and become the shadow you
were destined to be, forever alone and in agony.

As the light drifts away
We were so, belonging in each other
I could reach my arm across the bed, but
you are not there
I could feel the touch of your hand, but it is fleeting
I could feel your thoughts driving me away
I could feel your emotions turn away
I could feel you shutting down
I could feel your trust diminish
I could feel the cold shoulder that once
was welcoming
I could feel your scent leaving into a memory
I could feel your body pull away
I could feel your embrace fading
I could feel the caring disassemble
I want to feel you but I cannot
I want to hold you in my arms but cannot
I want to feel the love but it’s gone
I want to be there but I am not
I want you to feel needed but you don’t
I want you but you don’t
I want to open my eye and see you here
But I opened my eyes and you were not there

Clay and dirt
Torn and twisted, gasping for air, I plead guilty
These crimes of feeling alone in destitution
Abandoned and astray my thoughts carry
me to the ground
Only to feel the cold damp clay comfort the the
raging wildfire inside
The temperature cooling the wounds and granting
freedom to my soul
Only to leave this earth, lost and forgotten
The bleeding has stopped, the pain subsided
Flying up through the clouds to another destination
My eyes give their final tears as my body sink
below the earth
My departure sings a melodic tune to the end
of my suffering
If only my life were different, the choice was
mine in the end
Last

The fall
The light begins to fade
The air gets colder with the shade
Tides begin to rise
The light is taken away
The moon begins to fall from the sky
The sun has turned it’s back
The moon grabs on to the last of the light as it
falls from the sky
The heat from the decent looked like the light
But it felt like the fires of hell
Covered in darkness the moon impacts the earth
with a violent crash
The damage is devastating, the moon did not survive
Shattered into a million pieces, the moon fades
from existence
Forgotten by the sun, the moon is wipe from history
The light that once shined on the moon, shines in
a different direction
The moons resonance cannot be heard, because the
moon died that day, alone and shrouded in darkness.