We chase the shadows of our future
Looking back and forth, past to present
We chase the dream, it drives us,
It moves us, we fight for it
It fuels our ingenuity, our creativity
We look for it, to grasp and never let go
Each day it becomes stronger, our Will ensues after
Each attempt, we push forward
Seconds feel like days, hours like months, days like
Years, we keep moving, looking for it
The hope to fulfill the dream
The dream of wholehearted Love.
We expect the worst when we are at our lowest
And we expect the highest when we are at our best.
We teach what we know yet sometimes we don’t
learn from what we are taught.
We hate too much of something yet yearn for
something we have very little of or don’t have at all.
When we want a relationship to work we fight for it yet
one-sided we let go and still want through the pain.
Dear child,
In life you will run into speed bumps, walls, forks in the road. Sometimes you will feel like giving up. You will feel like all hope is lost. Even like you can’t move on or go on. You’ll feel like shit, depressed and motiveless. You blame yourself for it all and you will hate yourself. You will be mad at yourself. Just know that these things are a natural course of life. You will be alright, you will move on. You will be able to be happy and escape stress and depression. You will overcome great odds. You will succeed. You will find the passion that will drive the rest of your life. You will find your destiny. You will be happy. This is only temporary and lasts as long as you want it to. Keep your head up.
Love,
Dad
Everything you say hurts
I felt it all, as it fell apart in my hands
I knew we were build on a broken bridge
I had faith we would be
Broken we are not
Apart and destroyed by a few words
The only things that’s left is a shattered soul
Recovery doesn’t seem likely
You didn’t even feel anything
Only to use me I fell for you
I fell hard and glimpsed at the hope
There was nothing there but my empty hand
I’m falling further because I fell so far for you
The stars couldn’t even stop me
This is the end as the agongy rushes through me
I feel everything, I want to be numb
You broke my heart so many times and I stayed
You tortured me to the brink of death and I stayed
I did everything to keep you and I lost you
I fear this wound will never heal
A part of my life I wish I could forget
You never cared
You never loved me
Just a mask to use me like everyone else
I have no more kind words for you
I’m just a speck of dusk in your way
I’m just the ember that escaped the fire
To eventually be extinished
For each day that passes
My thoughts of you remain
My feelings never changed
The touch of your skin escapes me
My mind drifts, carried across nations
My heart yearns for you
My soul cries out to you
Each day that passes
I wish you where here
I see you when no one else does
I saw you in the crowded spaces
I’ve seen when you’re vulnerable
I’ve seen when you’re strong
I’ve seen when you cry
I’ve seen when you laugh
When you’re happy and sad
I’ve seen when you’re hyper and calm
I’ve seen you when your sick and in good health
I see you when you doubt yourself
I see you when you stand on what is right
I’ve seen when you’re humble
I’ve seen when you’re understanding
When you care
When you are afraid
When you are bold
For all this I love everything about you
For this I say, I love you more than you know
-EDC
Every binding breath taken
Every thought in my mind
Finding you in everything
So much damn Love for you
It’s hard to contain myself
I want you, I need you
Take my hand and hold me closer
Breath like you’re free
Open your heart
Let love run like rivers in the desert
Hear my voice as we embrace
Your shine pushes through the clouds
The tender touch of your lips
It cools the fires that burn inside
Your eyes reach into my soul
Your hands hold my heart
Hear me when I say
I love you
Trials for Harmony 